Rapid increase in entropy

Last friday night
Maddy came from office. Somehow, he felt very happy. Yeppe.. weekend has come sort of feeling! He chatted with his roomie Rocky (Rakesh). Earlier that afternoon, he cancelled the trip to Grand Canyon, as he got an assignment from Raj. He cancelled his trip to keep his mind focused. So his friend Niraj was a bit worried as they both planned to drive the 450+ miles. When he pulled off, others have to drop the plan. (How bad!?)

Last saturday
All his roomies went out. MAddy was alone in the home. He felt very lazy. He made batter for preparing thin round wheat bread (chapatti). Then, he went out to Ralphs for getting some vegetables for making the curry. He got a 2L coke can, a Tropicana orange juice pack, and some cut vegetables. After reaching home, he realized that he had left the the vegetables at Ralphs. He felt lazy to get the vegetables from Ralphs as it was around 9 PM. Then he dropped the plan of making chapatti. He prepared banana smootie and ice cream smootie, had them. :(

He had plans to cover 200+ pages in a book and barely managed to cover 70+ pages.

Last sunday
He got up by 10 or so. He had some bread, and juice. The target for this day was to cover the rest of the 200 pages. He was feeling very guilty of the last day, he spent some time in sobre mood hearing sad songs.

Monday morning
He came to office by 8:51 AM this morning (client's new requirement to come before 9:00 AM). He just could not imagine working.


P.S. All these lazy acts and dis-orderliness are indications of something wrong building up.

Thoughts on aggression

Maddy was hearing a Tamil song. It said - 'திக்குசியாய் இல்லாம நீ திக்குசியாய் இருடா'. It literally means - have the fire in you without having fire in you. He was confused. Mystic lines indeed. Let us pause the discussion about these lines for a moment and then get to the main theme of this post.

Maddy had seen many aggressive males. He himself shows aggression sometimes. He started experiencing the negative impact of aggression shown by others. He started analyzing on what was wrong with those males. By then, he knew that something was wrong with those guys. But did not know what was wrong. One fine day his mind told him that that was aggression which he did not like in them. He realized that he himself possesses that trait. He swore on that day to gradually give up aggression. Further he shared me the following thoughts.

Aggression is a negative trait. It results out of self-centrism. There can be many reasons for showing aggression like you want to enforce your thought, you want to meet your guidelines, you want to maximize your profits, etc. On the otherhand, passion is a positive trait. Aggression occurs when a passionate person does not have empathy. One has to be passionate and not aggressive. Both these qualities are of fuming nature.

Further he quoted the first mentioned Tamil line and gave his explanation that - 'Be passionate without being aggressive.'

Thoughts on nagging and making fun

Maddy was a simple boy till the time he reached college. When he reached NIT Trichy, he came into company of friends where nagging and pulling legs were common. He felt a bit awkward at first. Then he started feeling that it is no harm. Eventually nagging got pronounced whenever he started interacting with others on light matters. It continued even after he became a software professional. Then he realized the following.

Nagging and making fun is a cowardly act to blow up others' inability. It rises out of inferiority complex and ends up in superiority complex. If we closely analyze on the possible causes of this state, we come to know that lack of self-belief, lack of empathy, and lack of acceptance of the truth (esp. when it is against your interests and is for others' interest) as the prime causes. This is not an uncommon thing. It just takes a conscious effort to tell good bye to this habit. This will drive away sarcasm as a bonus.

My wonder, Maddy stopped nagging from then on.